My journey from the stress of the corportate world to inner peace
Hi! First off, i would just like to say thank you for taking interest in my story and in joining me in my first blog ever!
The reason I wanted to share my story was to hopefully touch others and encourage
them to follow their dreams, even if it feels so impossible at times.
My story is far from being a fairy tale, I had many bumps in the road, many of them that would have thrown me off track if I didn't meet the right people along the way. But as they say, if you want something in life, go get it... and so I did...
My story began 10 years ago, finishing university after studying to be an actuary. I always had an interest in math, and therefore figured this would be a good career choice. On April 17, 2016, I celebrated exactly 10 years of being an actuary. However, on this exact date, I wrote my letter of resignation as I knew this was no longer my path.
For those who work in an office setting or any fast paced job, you may be able to relate to this as it is a constant rat race. Approximately 5 years in the corporate world, I started feeling the pressures that came with being a career driven woman. I ignored the small signs of stress and continued the pursuit to be a consultant in my field. As I grew in the company, so did my responsibilities, and inevitably, the stress started manifesting itself in ways I could no longer ignore.
Last week, I hit rock bottom. The countless days working overtime and sleepless nights finally hit me. I hit a wall. Every time I would think of work, I would cry. For no reason at all, I would cry. I started getting stomach pains, chest pains, and shooting pains in my arms. I actually thought I was having a heart attack or that I had given myself an ulcer with all the coffee I was drinking to keep myself awake and efficient. I went for tests but nothing was wrong. I cried all the time, I thought I was going through a nervous breakdown. And maybe I was, who knows…
Finally during the week night, I broke down in front of my husband. Just a little background history of our relationship, how we met and how I got into my way of life today:
10 years ago, I was in the worst shape of my life. I was obese type II, had joint pains and well, had the more than occasional drink and drugs to keep me happy. I was going through life like a zombie. I was in a rut and didn’t know how to get out of it.
In October 2007, while walking to work, an 18 wheeler hit me as I crossed the street. Miraculously, I had no broken bones, however due a fever I had free liquid in my abdomen area, the doctors believed I had internal bleeding, and therefore I needed an emergency surgery.
The surgery went well, however the recovery was long and painful. The doctors needed to cut through my abdomen during the surgery, therefore my abs were torn. Several months after surgery, I still wasn’t able to raise my hands over my head due to the abdominal pain it caused, and I therefore decided to seek the advice of a personal trainer to help me get into better shape.
This was the start of my love for fitness and nutrition.
Slowly I started training and getting into better shape. I learned what foods were better for me and integrated them in my diet. I trained and focused on bettering myself.
I was finally feeling better about myself and it showed! Not only physically but mentally too! At this point, I decided to actually make a change in my life. I hadn't felt this good since I was a kid. And so I decided that enough was enough. I quit the drugs and focused on my training, on me. I was single at that time and I really wanted to meet someone that would share my love and passion for training and healthy living. I had finally found myself and I was loving my new me!
Funny enough, 2 weeks after I quit smoking, I met the love of my life who helped me fully discover who I am, and I am forever grateful to him.
PART II - FOR THE REST OF THE STORY...